torstai 14. kesäkuuta 2007

The worlds we live in or not


It took me a long time to find a convenient title for the blog and it describes well what I feel when I travel across texts, images, music and whatever is to be found on the internet. I am not fishing nor waiting for anything special to happen.
I just kill my time, I just take a break, I just try breathing another way.
As I was a child my father bought me a book for children with quite nice pictures of Gullivers travels, but at the time I wasn´t really a fan of it. I was just mesmerised by the giant in the lilliputs world and I suddenly understood what scale can mean.
Well, now I am much older and I remember stories I used to love or like as for example "Candide" of Voltaire, "Brothers Karamazov" of Dostoievski and so on...and Zola, Stendhall, and...
What now? I am lost in this world I do not feel home at anymore. It is much too concrete with decisions to make, situations to manage. If I could listen to my inner voice it would take me in a world of films to watch, books to read, music to listen and I would sink in it, I wont move, I will just let myself be taken in the flow. It is not enough for me from time to time to read a book, or watch a film or listen to music, I need to drown in those other worlds.